Today I made two decisions.
First was to forget about the bra. Mom and I went in search of health food stores on the high street, and I wore my loose and lovely blue dress. Because the dress has some strategic pleats I was able to walk around sans-false breast (sans bra altogether) and it felt divine: just me and the soft caress of cotton in the breeze. You know what, I think people didn’t even notice.
Today was a very good day for body image awesomeness. I also bought a shirt from H&M that has similar pleats. The neckline plunges considerably, but I figure why not? I’m only 28, and so what if I occasionally show a bit of scar? Once this wound heals it will lighten and become less alarming to the accidentally flashed, plus in general the design of this shirt means neither boob nor scar will be hanging out for the world to see.
🙂 Shopping. Oh I love it, even if I can only stand an hour before my side becomes overcome with pins and needles.
My second decision has also been made today. Zsolt and I will stay in England for the chemotherapy. While I’d love to be near my family, I also love being near my husband – and he needs to finish his thesis, which can best be done with access to the university and his colleagues. In the meantime I’ll start applications in case we decide to move after chemo is completed. At the moment that future decision to move is still in the air, but for now we’re staying put in jolly old England.
So there you go. Today I am feeling better, better than yesterday, for sure. To top off the good vibes my work colleagues stopped by for a visit (and brought presents, yay!). I’ll tell you what, the library is the loveliest place – from the people, to the environment, to the work. Shout out to Nick and Margaret! Thanks for coming round; it was great to chat a while.
So high and lows, as promised. Today has been a high. And thanks goodness for that.
PS – an extra shout out to the generous ladies who delivered a certain lunch/dinner this past afternoon. Your thoughtfulness is very much appreciated, and I think was a highlight in the day. It’s incredible how people can take care of one another. Wonderful too. 🙂